The end.
*January 8, 2009
Well, friends.
After much thought and contemplation and reflection and introspection and all those things, I have decided to shut down my blog. Or not really shut it down, but stop updating. Everything will still be here. For a little while, at least, anyway. The being here, that is. The non-updating is for much longer than a little while. Meaning, most likely forever. Though one never really knows, so I won't say for sure.
God, I wanted this to be more eloquent. But I can't wait any longer for the eloquent words to come. I'm not sure they will ever come.
I have lots of reasons, but kind of the main reason is that I don't feel I can even fully outline the reasons here. This blog has become something I never intended it to be, and it's really no one's fault but my own. I am suffocating here. My hands are tied behind my back. I don't even feel like I can freaking CUSS here, and, well, I cuss a lot. I like to cuss. Those words are an important, often humorous part of our language. And I'm tired of not cussing in the space my voice should be the purest.
Mostly, I'm tired of trying to be someone other than me. I'm learning to fix that in real life, and it has therefore become unsustainable here. Which is a good thing.
As part of my new year's resolution, I will still be writing. Hopefully I'll even be writing about what's actually going on in my life. It's just not going to happen here.
If you want, you can e-mail me, and I can tell you some of the reasons. Or you can e-mail me and tell me something about you, and we can parlay our blog friendship into an e-mail friendship. I like e-mails. I still feel like myself there. And I like you. Even if I don't know you yet. I generally like everyone. Or, if you live in the area, you can e-mail me and we can parlay our blog friendship into a real-life friendship. Those are the best.
So. I guess that's it.
Much love to you all. I will miss you. Very much.
And thanks for reading.
S.








